R.E.S.P.E.C.T.

About a year ago I heard about someone talking about me and my personal life. I heard it from a 3 rd party. Then I heard that it was talked about AT a party. In a group setting. Many voiced their opinions on my life, my choices, etc. Assumptions were made. Speculation occurred. I did not really know most of the people that were included in that group discussion.

My personal life is fairly public, and I have chosen to make it so, via facebook and this lovely blog. I am careful not to share certain things that I hold a little more dear to my heart because I am aware that these things can be twisted and changed depending on who is reading about it.

The topic that was openly discussed at aforementioned party was something I hold very dear. Something I don't just talk about openly on my blog or on facebook. Sure I may have hinted here and there or almost mentioned it, but I have really tried to be careful. I tried to be careful so that things like the above situation would not happen.

But it did. And when I heard about it, I thought "are you kidding me? Why were they talking about that? Who  are they to talk about me in that way?" I tried to act calm and collected but it upset me. It was holiday season so I pushed it in the back of my mind so that I could enjoy the holidays and try and forget about it.

Well.

It's been a year.

And I am still upset about it.

It really hurt me then and it hurts me now thinking about that.

maybe finally venting about it will help me get over it. because obviously keeping it in for a year did nothing.

Do you know why  I am so open on this blog? Because I want people to know the REAL me. I want people to know how I really am as a wife, mother, LDS girl, etc. I don't like to focus on just the great things because I want people to know that sometimes life sucks, but you keep your head up and move forward. I don't focus on just the negative because when it comes down to it, life is A-mazing and we are oh, so blessed! I try to be honest and straight forward. I try to let people know that is OK to not be "perfect." It's ok to just be you, and no one else. I have receieved messeges many times from people I didn't even know were reading my blog letting me know how they had been touched by a specific post I had written or how it had been just what they needed to hear etc. And so I kept my blog public. I kept being open.

My blog will remain public, because of the positive things that have come from having it public.

But for the love! Please be respectful of my life. I share it with you as a friend. Let's keep it that way.